Day 64: Feeling Guilty

So today I was scheduled to have two different appointments. One in the morning and one in the afternoon. I felt so bad having to call around and find someone to watch my kids. I hate doing that. I hate asking people for favors, and it seems like I always have too. If Shawn wants to do a date, or he decides something last minute, I have to find the sitter. This gives me extreme anxiety, whether we are paying them or not, it stresses me out.

My good friend Jessica not only gladly agreed to watch my kids, she told me she would come to our house! What an amazing girl! I so wasn't asking her to do that. So, at 8:30 this morning she showed up with her little Penny and sat with my kids for over an hour while I went to what I hope to be my last doctor's appointment for a year. So she is a saint in my eyes. She didn't even mind that it took my doctor FOREVER to see me today. I think it took so long because I was suppose to go in on Friday, but she had an emergency c-section or something come up, so they rescheduled me for today. That'll put her behind.

Thank goodness my second appointment was pushed back. I had a sitter lined up, but it was a huge relief to tell her "Thanks anyway!" So now I get to stress about finding a sitter for Thursday. Oh my life, I hate what I stress about.